congratulations, i hate you.

i dont want this anymore. in fact, i more than dont want it. i wish and wish and wish and sometimes i pray that it didnt happen. Im living in a life where i know im ruining everything. the respect is gone, i cant just live in a pretend world anymore. i cant wear flowy dresses and drink iced tea on ferris wheels. i cant say i love you, everythings gonna be alright, coz sometimes love isnt enough. i cant sit by the railway and race the train accross the field, coz one day this trains gonna come off the tracks, and its going to run me down. And i cant outrun it. i can run and run until the ends of the earth, but itll catch me, just like you did. And i shall be weighed down with untruths and lies till i simply cant run any longer. i need to go back, to the place i was before, im a prisoner here, i dont want to be in this tiny box okay? get me out of this cage, i cant do this anymore. i guess what i thought i wanted isnt what i wanted after all. somebody please save me from myself.