tell me that you can't sleep
press your forehead against the window
tiny rivers of condensation
cool breath painting pictures in the glass
lie there pitifully in your underwear
pale tangle of white cotton and trembling lower lip

outside there is another life
past your haunting eyes and self destructive hold is opportunity
happiness even
you raise your chin proudly
obnoxious
i could no more walk out that door than you could let me go

sigh
swallow me in your sea of limbs
hopeful face and slender arms outstretched
you are the eternal flame that flickers over gravestones
impossible
your sadness burns on in an endless light

and even though i stay
i know that your flame ignites the air you exist in
and casts everyone else into darkness

sadness

since the day i found you
nicotine stained teeth and unsteady hands
you were lonely
so was i
loneliness is a terrible thing
seeping into your skin
sinking its teeth into your heart
like a punch in the stomach that chokes the breath right out of your lungs and leaves you helpless and gasping for air
with loneliness comes an overwhelming sadness and with this sadness all kinds of terrible things are to come.


to leave behind, misplace, forget
staring blindly at blurred text
tangled in this indescribable light-limbed, heavy hearted whirlwind of bitterness
it's deathly silent
you won't stop rocking back and forth
i feel light headed
we were just lonely

it's kind of hard to explain
the way that loneliness swallows you
the way you wake up in the morning and already the dark haze of day has already wrapped itself around your gut, twisting tightly
light taunts you
day mocks you
night for all it's effort, offers little comfort
if loneliness was a sea, i would surely drown