sadness

since the day i found you
nicotine stained teeth and unsteady hands
you were lonely
so was i
loneliness is a terrible thing
seeping into your skin
sinking its teeth into your heart
like a punch in the stomach that chokes the breath right out of your lungs and leaves you helpless and gasping for air
with loneliness comes an overwhelming sadness and with this sadness all kinds of terrible things are to come.


to leave behind, misplace, forget
staring blindly at blurred text
tangled in this indescribable light-limbed, heavy hearted whirlwind of bitterness
it's deathly silent
you won't stop rocking back and forth
i feel light headed
we were just lonely

it's kind of hard to explain
the way that loneliness swallows you
the way you wake up in the morning and already the dark haze of day has already wrapped itself around your gut, twisting tightly
light taunts you
day mocks you
night for all it's effort, offers little comfort
if loneliness was a sea, i would surely drown