if sadness was a sea, i would surely drown

you're hurting me.
it hurts.
i am neither here nor there.

You smile obliviously, eyes focused as you stack shelf upon shelf. You chatter on obliviously, loud voiced as you  light fire after fire. You turn to me for comfort, miserable as you drive knife after knife through my chest.
we are not friends.
we are not lovers.

We're both reaching for the remote and you're laughing and i'm laughing and we're both laughing and  happiness is enshrouding us and our skin is hot with excitement.
You tumble into the darkness.
i am caught. Balanced on the very edge of the cliff, hanging in the balance between light and dark.
You don't want me. The darkness pulls at me anyway.
You want me. The light is familiar.

We are not friends.
we are not lovers.

We both tumble forward into darkness.